so many things to do T.T

Oh goodness. I have so many things to do these days~ the ap forms are due soon and I still don't know what I should take next year x.x oh yea and I have no idea if I can handle the aps im taking.. Awesome! (oh doode, that word is really starting to annoy to me P >.<)
But yea. I really don't know what I want to be when I grow up. Like when I was little I used to hate it when people asked me that question, cuz I never knew the answer. And now its like the same thing~ cept it affects my future more. >.<" It seems like every day I would have a conversation that involves the future. Like jobs and what courses I'm gonna take and things like that. It so wierd. Scary-wierd to think about all that stuff now. It's so close and yea. Pretty freaky x.x
But I should just not freak out too much~ cuz C said I do that way too much x] haha. Seriously though~ like I have no idea what to do. But like they were talking about at ACCCN last time, God has everything planned out for us, so I really do not need to be freaking out. Yet here I am! Freaking out.
More of some other stuff though~
You know when you have a guy best friend and all and a lot of people think that you guys are going out? Well I can say it's pretty annoying, cuz its happened to me so many times -.- but what I just do its let it go~ and try not to act that way around those people again? Kind of. Like some things that you do sometimes just makes it seem like you guys like each other, like hugging and stuff, but if you really think that there's nothing going on between you guys, then seriously, it doesn't matter what other people think. They can think whatever they want and if it's your girl friends then maybe you could think about what their trying to say, but if you reassure your closest friends that there is nothing going on then yep. the rest of the world doesnt matter. :] I mite be a hypocrite on some of these things, but still~ haha
Ohkay this is getting to be one of the longest blog post I have ever posted. haha yay! :D new record~
I wish that I can make the right choices in life :]
Ciao~!
--S